Today’s edition of Best Gore Members Rock is brought to you by Best Gore member mrosef. Mrosef is not a self harmer, had never done cutting and probably never will. He would like to use his onetime experience as a window to the life of a person with depression fuelled with substance abuse. Here’s his story:
I just wanted to share some pictures of an incident that occurred on the 19th of February. The incident is self mutilation from an exacto knife. Which if you know is a very sharp blade.
How this happened is quite simple. I suffer from depression (like many people do) and alcohol abuse. I have never done anything like this to myself before and it is very out of character. I have always been against violence even to oneself. But I was intoxicated, irrational, and set with a heavy burden of depression. I sliced my leg slowly doing a few cuts at a time enjoying the sight of my own blood. Then progressively going towards destroying my legs with the exacto knife.
As soon as I sobered up I laughed at myself and forgave myself for my actions. Live and learn right?
I want to share these photos and my story to let people know what mental illness and drug abuse can cause. Even to someone who isn’t a self harmer like myself… Well wasn’t a self harmer till now.
Depression can grab a hold of any strong minded human and make them do/think irrational things. This is intensified with alcohol and/or drugs.
Thanks a lot for sharing your pictures and story exclusively with us here at Best Gore, mrosef. We wish you a lot of strength in dealing with challenges that lie ahead of you: