Man Diagnosed with Depression Plays with Blood from Self Inflicted Wounds

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Man Diagnosed with Depression Plays with Blood from Self Inflicted Wounds

Today’s edition of Best Gore Members Rock is brought to you by Best Gore member @Ericwil, who was diagnosed with depression and uses cutting as a release:

Hello everyone, I am a new user, I know this page for about 3 weeks. I’m from Buenos Aires, Argentina. If there are things that are not understood, it is because I am using the Google translator. I will try to be brief and not go into details.

I am 22 years old, recently diagnosed with depression (or severe depression), in addition to a lot of anxiety. It is possible that I have more mental “problems”, but only severe depression and anxiety have been confirmed me.

I started to experience problems a little less than 4 years ago, after my ex-girlfriend cheated on me. For 2 years I have had no friends. In general my depression was started by being alone for a long time. Loneliness makes things difficult to explain.

Not only does it make you sad, in my case it generated a general hatred for society. It is much more complex than that, but as I said, I will not go into details.

I started cutting about a month ago, just in the left arm. In general, I do it to remind myself that I do not have to try to solve things, and to eventually kill myself. Besides, I like cuts and blood.

The photos correspond to approximately 11 different sessions. When I started cutting, I cut slow, but I realized that I could not take the pain, so
now I do it fast, without applying much pressure.

The tool I use I made myself (I work in a metallurgical factory). My goal is to cut deeper and deeper because, as I said, my goal is to ultimately kill myself. I still do not know if I would rather do it by cutting myself, or by hanging myself.

I am currently taking antidepressants and I attend sessions with a psychiatrist / psychologist.

I do not come to Best Gore for help or advice, just to share my blood with you. Enjoy it.

Thanks a lot for sharing your pics and the video with us, @Ericwil. Oddly enough, I am the exact opposite of you. Being around people makes me anxious and depressed. But when I’m alone, far away from people, the further the better, I feel alive, content, empowered, serene and in harmony with myself and the universe. After all, as you noted yourself, it’s the interactions with other people that made you feel depressed.

Anyway, I wish you strength and wisdom for the days to come:

Video of @Ericwil playing with blood from self inflicted wounds:

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96 thoughts on “Man Diagnosed with Depression Plays with Blood from Self Inflicted Wounds”

    1. I agree. I like blood as mush as the next person on Best Gore, but not self inflicted. How about some positive attention? take your camera, phone, whatever, walk down your street and find it yourself, living in Brazil I’m sure there are a lot of bloody things going on. I don’t think this place is the best if your seeking good reactions and attention. I hope everything works out for you and you realize that you will be fine…

    1. “Hey bruh try to be understanding.
      We can’t all be perfect humans dude.
      But right on you living in Brazil.
      Without feeling like blowing your brains out.
      With places like ManAnus Brazil.”
      🙂

        1. @trust me
          Your right bro
          I know that clinical depression, bipolar and such do exist, but this guys girl cheated on him and he has had no friends in 2 years, he is lonely. .
          For fucks sake get over it bro that cunt cheated on you, forget that bitch and go get some pussy….

          1. “Wasn’t trying to be hostile.
            And I do agree with you there bro.
            He should get over her and mingle.
            And celebrate being single.
            That is what I’d do my friend.”
            🙂
            @serial killer 1

        1. Dag Nabbit, I agree with your above statement however, as someone with depression and PTSD there is no one who can understand the feeling of another person but the person who has the feelings.
          This is why matters of the brain cannot be treated as one would treat a broken bone. You can physically see the break in human flesh, but you can’t see the mental problems of the mind. This makes them extreamly difficult if not impossible for a Psychiatrists to help.

      1. Do not take yourself so seriously, my buddy. Exercise your body, learn to control your mind through slow and deep breathing, trust in God. Stop putting your happiness in the hands of other human beings. Live and let live. Everything passes! Remember that. Cheers.

        1. Do you really think I’m interested in your fucking help? What do I cut to attract attention? I have all the help I need I will not come here on advice of a slut like you, I upload the content for being gore, because so you know this is a gore page. How would you say in my country, boludo.

  1. @Ericwill, welcome aboard. I think that you will find that many of the members here suffer from depression in varying degrees. I myself joined Best gore about five years ago when I was at a real low point in my life and the thought of suicide was very real for me. After getting to know the people here and sharing our comments on a daily basis it seemed like my problems weren’t so bad after all and I was able to stare death in the face and laugh at it. Humor is a big part of what this site is all about and before long you will be laughing and making friends and soon you will forget all about whatever is making you feel depressed now. Seriously Eric, a great bunch of people here and amazing content that will have you coming back several times each day.

  2. After just reading your entire story Eric I can honestly say that our situations are (were) very similar except for the cutting. I too spent many months in seclusion without talking to anyone and all I could think about was suicide. I’m so glad I found this place and decided to stick around amongst the living.

    1. If I can make a suggestion or two…
      Firstly forget about women for a while. You need to work on making yourself happy before you can even consider putting your heart out on the chopping block again. Masterbation will satisfy your basic sexual needs and it’s an important part of maintaining your general happiness and overall well-being. It’s also something we talk about openly here (or at least I do). As with any website there are some not so friendly people here…we refer to them as trolls and sheep. Their goal is to stir up shit and pissed you off so pay no attention to them. The main thing here is to be respectful to other members and share your thoughts and feelings about the topic on hand. We joke around a lot as I’m sure you know by now. Laughing in the face of death and making jokes about other’s misfortune is what we do here…and most of us are quite good at it.

    1. too true @brokeback i tend to be awake for days on end then crash during the day. With the meds i’m on you’d think I’d be a drooling zombie but I spend every night wide awake, usually falling down one weird rabbit hole or another! Thank god my internet provider can’t view my history LOL!

      1. @TankGirl, yup…between the Opiates, Antidepressants, Viagaras and all the other shit I dump in my system I’m surprised I’m not dead yet. I did however manage to sleep 13 hours straight last night so I’m feeling very rejuvenated today.

  3. Que tal hermano, soy de Bs As tambien, y me hice una cuenta para escribirte y darte animos. Me gustaria conocerte mejor y que hablemos de este tema y muchos mas, acá tenes un amigo =) buscame en el face como jean paul y charlemos por ahi. Cuidate, hermano, y como dijo serial killer, deja esas mariconadas para las pendejitas! XD Un abrazo

  4. Your goal is not to kill yourself, or you wouldn’t be taking your meds and seeking help. Stop cutting while it’s still a new experience for you. You’re obviously conflicted (which I understand), but take the fact that you’re already seeking help as a clue that you’re on the right track.
    I have fought depression for 30 years and have almost regretted my decisions as you soon will if you don’t stop.

  5. Just a thought but the tap in your bathroom yes you might want to squirt a little bleach on their pal poor thing is looking neglected…Shit this guy speaks no English erm tapio cleanio??

  6. Chin up @ericwil hope you can find better ways to come to a sustained level of normality in your mental health. I know that many of us had/have depression (myself included) and have many different ways of dealing with it by using drugs, taking meds, cutting, taking it out on other people or all of the above. I hope you coming here to best gore will help you see things in a different maybe humorous light as @brokeback mentioned before and you can buddy up to someone who has maybe been through the same shit as you too. There are many people on here willing to chat/joke about shit (myself included) which i think helps those individuals get a release from the fucked up realities of life without us even realising that we are here for that release. Anyway champ before your google translator explodes ill leave you on one note, theres 1000 levels of suffering above losing a girl to cheating and being isolated, these things can be fixed over time 🙂

  7. Go kill your mayor or any minister!! You will be famous and you will get death eventually! Please do something big before dying! Has you don’t need life anyways!

    PS: Don’t kill people from public or innocent people!

    1. In fact I thought a lot, specifically killing certain people who indirectly killed me, or just innocent people, but I really do not think I can feel better about it, it’s easier to kill myself and nothing else

  8. For some odd reason, I read his story as Fernando from Vice City…hehehe

    I used to cut myself too when I was a teen. I was full of anger. My daughter also was a cutter. But, we “out grew” it, so to speak.

    I’m also on antidepressants, suffer from anxiety. That’s after I had to quit smoking the reefer. (Job, and boy I can use it on my off days!) But I make up for it while on vacation.

    Fernando, if I may call you that(?) Take Brokebacks advice. Go masturbate. Something. Get some poon.

    Just ramblin, slow day at work, don’t want to be here at all. Vacation is next month, so I’ll just think of places to go while being stoned. Long walks on trails, fishing, working around the house. Hell maybe do something my wife asked me to do 6 months ago.

    Yall have a great day…

  9. There is no wisdom, nor intelligence nor self medication in this… no art, only mere relief that could be otherwise achieved if he was busy with so many other things rather than self-harm… Antidepressants are only making shit worse, otherwise he wouldnt be doing that in the first place. Im sorry (not) but dispist this being a decent content, i cant help but to feel that they seek only attention in doing so… Being supportive of this at this point only makes it an incentive for others to do the same.

  10. Man i feel like im going in the same direction aswell…Never had panic attacks before i turned 30, i thought it was something wrong with my heart but the doctors told me its Anxiety…I dont know if that is actually true since nothing happened in that time…Ive always been a lonely guy and never felt bad about it, i was never down and still doing good…but everytime i try to sleep now my heart keep skipping beats and makes it impossible for me to sleep..

    Im pretty sure that if this condition continues i will get depressed and probably kill my self too…ive never ever even thought about killing my self but living like this is just painfull…Doctor gave me xanax to see if things would get better but it doesnt work, it just makes me sleep but i still feel the same.

  11. i had suicidal tendencies when yonger, but i treated with hallucinogics and misanthropy, worked very well. loneliness can be changed for solitude when you learn to deal with your consciousness and emotions.

  12. @Ericwil I understand where your coming im like you im lonely i was in a real bad state i started to isolate my self lock myself away in my unit and only come out when i really had too for food or doctor or paying bills, I was bullied a lot and this did significant damage to how i processed things I was getting myself into a paranoid state, anytime I saw a guy my own age even if they did nothing wrong I wanted to bash their face in till it was mush I was very angry.

    My psychologist diagnosed me with conditioning and trauma, But i was thinking negatively of myself im fucken hopeless, what woman would want me etc and i hope your psychologist can help reconditioning the way you think as what mine did for me.

    Positive reinforcement by some of the more understandable members and your getting that here by us BG members who have been in similar situations and some good advice by @brokeback and the reason for my behavior and why i felt like crap was because of memories or flashbacks that would trigger negative thought then that negative thought would cause a chemical reaction im not sure on the techical terms but the chemical reaction will change how you feel in combonation with your thoughts that are negative will make you feel like shit will make you feel like people are cunts that feeling of hopelessness that there is nothing you can do.

    The healing process takes time so don’t rush and be gentle to yourself mentally so no downgrading of any sort and if you get in a moment where you feel hopelessness or whats the point of living tell your self you are a fantastic guy, you have shown great courage and bravery by sharing your story its all about breaking that negative thinking cycle you are a wonderful person.

    So when you get negative feelings confront them and be gentle to yourself n say hey im better than that I am the fucken man and you hopelessness and worthless feeling can take a back seat.

    Just remember do what makes you happy and what is right for you and like @brokeback said it be good idea just to concentrate on yourself before you know it your be back in the game saying hellllllllllo ladies new in town wassssup good looking.

  13. @Ericwil I understand where your coming im like you im lonely i was in a real bad state i started to isolate my self lock myself away in my unit and only come out when i really had too for food or doctor or paying bills, I was bullied a lot and this did significant damage to how i processed things I was getting myself into a paranoid state, anytime I saw a guy my own age even if they did nothing wrong I wanted to bash their face in till it was mush I was very angry.

    My psychologist diagnosed me with conditioning and trauma, But i was thinking negatively of myself im fucken hopeless, what woman would want me etc and i hope your psychologist can help reconditioning the way you think as what mine did for me.

    Positive reinforcement by some of the more understandable members and your getting that here by us BG members who have been in similar situations and some good advice by @brokeback and the reason for my behavior and why i felt like crap was because of memories or flashbacks that would trigger negative thought then that negative thought would cause a chemical reaction im not sure on the techical terms but the chemical reaction will change how you feel in combonation with your thoughts that are negative will make you feel like shit will make you feel like people are cunts that feeling of hopelessness that there is nothing you can do.

    The healing process takes time so don’t rush and be gentle to yourself mentally so no downgrading of any sort and if you get in a moment where you feel hopelessness or whats the point of living tell your self you are a fantastic guy, you have shown great courage and bravery by sharing your story its all about breaking that negative thinking cycle you are a wonderful person.

    So when you get negative feelings confront them and be gentle to yourself n say hey im better than that I am the fucken man and you hopelessness and worthless feeling can take a back seat.

    Just remember do what makes you happy and what is right for you and like @brokeback said it be good idea just to concentrate on yourself before you know it your be back in the game saying hellllllllllo ladies new in town wassssup good looking.

    1. this was really positive nice read, actually for the most part the whole thread was. I don’t understand cutting so I stay out of discussion but I had to acknowledge how pleasant it was to see support and well wishes instead of all the ugly infighting and
      name-calling that haunts most threads, nice job motherfuckers

  14. I am currently taking antidepressants and I attend sessions with a psychiatrist / psychologist.
    …errr, not much help it appears. Perhaps a proctologist would be better?

    I do not come to Best Gore for help or advice, just to share my blood with you. Enjoy it.
    Yes, thanks, much enjoyed. Am sure you also are enjoying, the attention you are getting.

  15. just a friendly reminder for those seeing a psychologist etc you can not wholly rely on the psychologist to fix you you have do some of the work and want to fix yourself as well be open minded and when a psychologist talks listen its ok to ask questions but its generally not good if you don’t consider the psychologist suggestions and advice if you put up a mental road block then yes the psychologist won’t be able to help because your not letting him or her help.

  16. Hola eric qué tal, quería empezar diciendo que si se entiende muy bien la historia a pesar que lo escribiste con google translate. otra cosa que quería decirte es que cree está cuenta solamente para poder escribirte y poder déjarte saber que yo quiero ser tu amigo, yo sé que vivo muy lejos vivo en Guatemala. Pero me puedes hablar por mensaje cada día, y apesar que cuento con una vida muy ocupada me
    Comprometo poder hablar con tigo todos los días. Y pues yo entre y vi tu post y me llamó mucho la atención ya que yo estoy viviendo algo muy triste en estos instantes también y pues para que veas que si vales algo me tome el tiempo para poder escribirte un mensaje. Espero me puedas hablar ya que me interesa bastante ser tu amigo, no agas caso a los malos comentarios ya que ellos Tienen la mente tan cerrada que ni saben lo que dicen. Saludos y muchas bendiciones ! Espero me hables Facebook . C o m / tztato o eduardo Estrada. Tengo una foto con dos bolsas sostenidas. Espero tu mensaje !!

    1. Hola tatu, gracias por la buena onda y por encima tomarte el tiempo para crearte una cuenta solo para escribirme. Lo de los comentarios negativos no me calienta para nada, en este tipo de sitios sé que hay bastantes trolls. Preferiría igual no involucrarme en una relación a distancia, ya tuve varias antes y bueno, simplemente no tengo ganas, pero aprecio mucho tu interés. Le envié unas fotos y actualización de como están las cosas ahora al administrador así que espero que lo suba. De cierta forma digamos que la situación esta” mejor”. Saludos y nuevamente gracias.

  17. Hey man I rarely comment but hear me (TRANSLATE ME),
    I’m am suffering the same things as you bro but for different reasons. loss of appitite, no sleep/waking up too early, Overthinking, Thinking nothing will work and of course random crying,i know your pain man and let me tell you something.

    Get out of there and speak to people . Famliy,friends or anyone if you have to.You are in a state of mind where you see every solution as futile. You need to see it from another perspective man. famliy are better as they care for you more than anyone. Mom knows best. We Are both fighting a common enemy and sometimes fighting it by yourself is basically fighting yourself.. Your thoughts,your emoctions.
    Good luck my friend, i hope it help 😀

  18. I have major depression disorder, schizophrenia, multiple personality disorder, very bad anxiety, very bad OCD, ADD, ADHD, & SDAM, Ik what depressed people go through, I’ve been raped & beaten withing an I checked of my life, had broken bones, I cut myself sometimes, I don’t broadcast it though, I don’t do it for the attention, I do it because when you’re so depressed sometimes you just don’t feel anything & I hurt myself so I can feel something, the pain feels good & watching my blood come out makes me feel as if all the bad feelings are leaving my body

  19. Youre gonna Cut yourself til you die?? Because your ex was a whore got sick elsewhere?? Just off your pathetic self with a good old bullet to the head works 99% of the time… good luck cry baby!!!!!

  20. Hola Eric. Soy de Santa Fe Capital. Como te va ultimamente??? Pasando acá por bestgore no me esperaba leer una historia de un compatriota argentino puesto que esta página es de habla anglosajona, viste. Hice esta cuenta para saber como estabas y decirte que a veces yo tambien me siento muy dolido e ignorado por todo el mundo. Tengo 21 y, al igual que vos, pasé por etapas tremendas a finales de mi adolescencia que me dejaron muy mal y todavía sigo luchando con estos “males” que todavía no me dejan tranquilo. Para no hacer este mensaje tan largo tengo que decirte que aunque te hayas negado de admitir consejos a la comunidad tengo que decirte algo que quizás ya lo sepas: ESTE MUNDO, MAS QUE NADA ÉSTE PAÍS ES UNA REVERENDA MIERRDA. Lo digo así porque es cierto. Y encima a pesar de todo hay que seguir adelante y el mundo solo te dice “aguantatela macho”. No sé los problemas por los que estas pasando, no es de mi incumbencia, pero quiero por último solo por intentar ayudarte. Decirte que TE DETENGAS. No te cortes más. No dañes más tu cuerpo. Intentá, de a poco, buscar algo o disponer de tu tiempo en algo que no te haga daño. Si?? Suena autoritario, pero a veces hay que ser duro para que los demás dejen el sufrimiento. Asi que bueno Eric. NO TE HAGAS MÁS DAÑO, NO SIRVE DE NADA. DEJALO IR. Que el dolor ya va a pasar!!!! Animate que todo esto ya va a pasar!

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