Today’s edition of Best Gore Members Rock is brought to you by Best Gore member @Ericwil, who was diagnosed with depression and uses cutting as a release:
Hello everyone, I am a new user, I know this page for about 3 weeks. I’m from Buenos Aires, Argentina. If there are things that are not understood, it is because I am using the Google translator. I will try to be brief and not go into details.
I am 22 years old, recently diagnosed with depression (or severe depression), in addition to a lot of anxiety. It is possible that I have more mental “problems”, but only severe depression and anxiety have been confirmed me.
I started to experience problems a little less than 4 years ago, after my ex-girlfriend cheated on me. For 2 years I have had no friends. In general my depression was started by being alone for a long time. Loneliness makes things difficult to explain.
Not only does it make you sad, in my case it generated a general hatred for society. It is much more complex than that, but as I said, I will not go into details.
I started cutting about a month ago, just in the left arm. In general, I do it to remind myself that I do not have to try to solve things, and to eventually kill myself. Besides, I like cuts and blood.
The photos correspond to approximately 11 different sessions. When I started cutting, I cut slow, but I realized that I could not take the pain, so
now I do it fast, without applying much pressure.
The tool I use I made myself (I work in a metallurgical factory). My goal is to cut deeper and deeper because, as I said, my goal is to ultimately kill myself. I still do not know if I would rather do it by cutting myself, or by hanging myself.
I am currently taking antidepressants and I attend sessions with a psychiatrist / psychologist.
I do not come to Best Gore for help or advice, just to share my blood with you. Enjoy it.
Thanks a lot for sharing your pics and the video with us, @Ericwil. Oddly enough, I am the exact opposite of you. Being around people makes me anxious and depressed. But when I’m alone, far away from people, the further the better, I feel alive, content, empowered, serene and in harmony with myself and the universe. After all, as you noted yourself, it’s the interactions with other people that made you feel depressed.
Anyway, I wish you strength and wisdom for the days to come:
Video of @Ericwil playing with blood from self inflicted wounds: