Whatever medication you’ve been on it’s probably not right for you. It sometimes take excessive evaluation for a psychiatrist to get a grasp on what you really need (what medication, type of therapy etc.).
I bet you’ve had your fair share of mental health proffesionals, but you really should tell your current one what you told us on here.
Also not to sound like a drug liberalist, but after several years of agonizing anxiety and medication I found weed settling me down and cut off the top of the iceberg.
I hope you stick around to get to know what could actually help you. Even though I can’t cope close to 100%,I’m no longer trying to off myself once a month. Again… One breath at a time. Whatever you choose I wish you the best of luck.