• Stubyone posted an update 3 months ago

    I’d like to believe but, it has to happen to me before that happens.
    About 4 1/2 years ago I was having tons of issues and put my 9mm to my head. The ONLY things I was thinking of was scaring my cat and if anyone heard the shot they would come in and try to save me. So I moved the gun down to my kitchen table and pulled the trigger. I then walked outside to see if anyone would come running. Nobody did. So, I finished my cigarette and when I got to my porch… I had second thoughts.
    I spent some time at a medical facility (2 weeks) and now I’m glad I didn’t go through with it.

    I don’t know if my thought process was like other troubled people or do some think of the mess that has to be cleaned up by someone.

    Holy shit, I ramble on. Haven’t really told anyone this before. Look what you people do to me. 😉

    • My cousin did it over a girl.

      My mother and father believe in that stuff. I’m a bit more skeptical.

    • I’ve thought about it, not for many years though. I’ve owned firearms pretty much my whole adult life but I never thought about going that way… I thought about driving into a concrete barrier, and overdosing. I’m too chicken to do it though. It’s hard now to imagine feeling that depressed, but I’ve been there. I guess everyone has demons. I will add that it was never over a man. I was more depressed about losing my dog than I’ve ever been over a breakup. It’s hard to replace a favorite dog. Like the one in my avi, he’s been gone for two years, I still miss him. Crazy fucker.